Thinking about this Sid Caeser quote really means a lot to me as an author who is currently at that point where “life” means a lot more then my imaginary worlds.
It is a little bit scary being in the in the middle of writing projects. It feels like I’m in the middle of nowhere. But I’m obviously somewhere.
I’ve made a little goal book to help me more successful in life (because everything fell apart this year).
Before that I put aside my NaNoWriMo project and mentally checked my first novella length story off my list of things I wanted to rewrite.
Now I do still have stories I’m researching for but they will probably be written far into the future—especially because I don’t plan on doing any heavy duty research right now.
Wait a second! Why did I just say that? I am doing heavy duty research on the Renaissance right now!
Okay, I see the need to explain. So last summer I started writing a fantasy story set during a fictionalized version of the Renaissance. The only problem was that aside from studying a little about that era in a history class and listening to music from that era in a music appreciation class—I knew very little about the Renaissance.
I didn’t want to read The Prince by Machiavelli. That’s saying something! Because I should read that book instead of just keeping it in my closet.
Oh yeah and the architectural history class that taught me about Renaissance architecture. It all wasn’t enough. So I decided that I needed to learn more about the system. I needed to learn about Popes and Dukes and States and Cities…
I decided to download some light reading for my Kindle called Beatrice d’Este Duchess of Milan. I decided to make an adorable Pinterest storyboard and post the first part of the novel on Figment.
I decided all these things because I was going to write a novel. I forgot that I am the type of person who cannot write and research at the same time. Therefor I’m still researching and almost forgot that this had started with a writing project. I go a little overboard when I research.
Once I had a Nerf swordfight with my brother so I could better relate to a character (in a short story a friend and I were writing) that included a battle scene with a unicorn.
Yeah, I go overboard with research.
Maybe that’s an indication as to why I need to really live in between projects and just let my brain clear out and just go exploring ideas and perspectives?
Now, time for a correction—not writing does not mean not writing. I am still blogging. I am still leaving comments everywhere I go. I am still emailing and texting and writing reviews and tweets and reflections. I’m just not working on a story.
But—I have a goal for this year. Actually I have loads of goals that include studying for Calculus and being better with relationships and learning to play the piano after like over 19 years of not being able to…the goal I’m referring to is the goal of completing a debut novel.
I am also going to write a novella to practice finding my writer’s voice. I’m supposed to be thinking up the theme for the story right now. Hmmm….what do I really want to write?
It’s a goal I set for myself last year (writing a debut novel). I ended up writing two stories, neither of which was very good. The fantasy one had this super high learning curve and was way too short… and the fairy tale retelling lacked voice and sort of fizzled out after 145 pages. It was my story it was just hard to immerse myself into it.
But the major problem was that both stories lacked the feelings I was trying to get across. Tjhey were just bone and no flesh at all!
I also wrote the beginnings of loads of stories and completed 2 books of poetry. Remember, Angels Here? I might rework Angels Here this year. But I’m trying to focus more on finding my voice as a writer and less on pulling my hair out over old drafts.
You can check out an old poem I posted on Figment the other day. It’s called, “Siren”, and is about a Siren who falls in love with a man and has to decide to stop singing forever so she won’t kill him. I had sent it in in hopes of it getting published in a fairy tale magazine—but I got a polite rejection letter saying there wasn’t enough time to read over my poem or something like that. I had sent it in on the deadline.
Anyways here it is. Check it out while it’s still online. I tend to delete my writing a lot.
By the way I have been watching Brandon Sanderson–could you tell? I also have been gobbling up stories because writing drains your brain. At least it drains mine.